Today, Lucy would be five months old if she was here with us. Five….months…. I miss Lucy every single day, but the 28th of every month is really hard. When Oliver was a baby, we took photos of him each…
Archives for June 2014
Things That Helped Us
I want to share some things that we found to be really helpful throughout the process of bereavement. God. We truly felt like God held us through all of this, and he’s still holding us. We felt his grace and…
Grief To Me
Riding the waves of grief is crazy and hard. Oliver brings me so much joy. Each moment that I get to spend with him is a gift, and I am so thankful for him. I have a lot of things…
Going Back to Church
Several weeks went by after we lost Lucy before we made it back to a Sunday service at our church. In my previous post, I talked about why I withdrew for a period of time. In the earliest part of…
Why I Withdrew
After we lost Lucy, I naturally withdrew for awhile to process what happened, wade through the deepest depths of grief and physically heal. Besides at Lucy’s memorial, there were good friends of mine that I didn’t see for weeks. I…
Lucy’s Marker
It’s been four and one-half months since we lost Lucy. I can’t believe it’s been that long. I still ache for her to be with us every single day. We miss her so much. It took us a little while…
White Balloon
We really wanted Oliver to get to be involved in something for Lucy. As I mentioned in my previous post, he did not come to her burial and memorial services. We decided that we would have him release a white…
Telling Oliver
This sweet little man. I am backing up a bit in the story to talk about being immediately faced with the reality that we had to tell Oliver what had happened right after we lost Lucy. We had been preparing…
Lucy’s Memorial Service
Lucy’s burial was very private. We only invited our immediate family and our pastor and his wife to attend. Her burial is something that I’m choosing to keep for ourselves and not write about. The only reason I am bringing…
Tough Decisions
One of the harsh realities of losing our baby was that it caused us to have to make some tough decisions. Despite feeling as if we were drowning in deep grief, we had to somehow find a way to suck…
Losing Lucy
I have so many moments vividly pressed into my memory. Some of these moments are scenes from a nightmare, but they are real for me. There are things I can’t un-see or forget; things that I feel will never leave…
Our Second Child
I have been feeling like I should start writing about this since we lost our sweet Lucy, but until now I had not felt ready. To be honest, this is the hardest thing I’ve ever written about. Frankly, I’ve been…